I passed.

Well, I was worried as to whether or not I passed the celta, and I have passed. I have the certificate to teach English as a Second Language. So that’s a relief!

On the down side, I didn’t get a job even though I moved to another city specifically to apply to a particular school. An employee of that school told me they were looking for someone and would want me because of my qualification, but when I went to an interview, nothing came of it.

I hate it when a person tells you that yes, you are on their books, that they will allow you to come and observe to learn about the job but then change their mind.

That is what this school did. I don’t understand, what did I do wrong? It happens sometimes, when people say ‘yes’ but then when you try to take them up on their offer, they change their minds. It’s so confusing!

I’m not complaining, I just wish I could understand whether it was something I did, or whether it was one of those times when I should have understood from their tone of voice or from some verbal cue?

If I could understand those sorts of things, I wouldn’t get confused like this. Well, I politely agreed to wait for an email from them.

It’s been several weeks, more than a month actually. I am still waiting.

All I asked was to observe a couple of classes. The people I made this request to were the directors of the school, and they said yes. So that’s why I am so confused! Anyway, I will forget about them for now, I think.

Which is difficult for folks on the Spectrum. I think a lot of us aren’t exactly obsessive… but we do need to see things through from beginning to end, or it preys on our minds. I have seen it in others too, so I know it isn’t just me.

Good grief it’s hard not to cross the line to obsessive, I tell you that!

I often have to make an effort to stop, and let it go. Whatever it is… forget about it. Put it aside for now.

I tell myself, ‘You aren’t giving up or losing, you just need to take a break from this because you can’t do anything more.’

I find myself prowling, pacing and feeling fidgety. But if I distract myself, it is ok, it fades back a bit. So if you have someone like that in your life, try distracting them. They don’t want to be obsessing over whatever it is, they just want to it to be finished or fixed or sorted out.

If they can’t feel like it’s completed or fixed, they can’t let go of the issue, problem or situation. So distract them if you can. And tell them that they can go back to it or fix whatever it is later. If there’s nothing else you can do, you have to set the problem aside, and work on it at a later time.

I hope that helps somebody. Or they go ‘That’s me!’

Bless you

Take care

:)