Invisible Autism

I just realised, while writing my previous entry, that yes, my Autism is invisible. So I changed my blog name for the third time, haha…

It is something that high functioning Autistics (or people on the Spectrum) have as their perhaps biggest problem.

We don’t seem like we are Autistic.

So!

That means that when things don’t go according to the usual, the confusion and poor reactions of those around us make us feel worse and often we don’t react well to their reaction, which merely serves to escalate the situation.

This is the main reason why this year, for the first time in 12 years of knowing (and hiding it), I have been informing future employers, and a few other people of my Aspergers Syndrome.

It is useful for them to know, and it helps me to be able to say, ‘Well, it’s a form of Autism. It just means that I get overwhelmed sometimes.’

I do not want to go on the sickness benefit (that’s a form of dole or unemployment money/subsidy from the government you can get if you get a certificate from your doctor to limit how often you have to work).

I want to live as ordinary a life as possible. I want to drink tea, play video games, sit in the sun with my cat, Henry, and yes, have a real, proper job.

I want to buy more and more books. And I want to be able to do that with money that I earned.

Argh, yes, I am currently unemployed. I wonder if I should go back to Japan to teach English, it’s just that it was stressful living in Japan as a foreigner, sometimes. I liked it very much but gosh, there were hard times.

Anyway! Yes, so that is why I changed the name of my blog.

Ok bye,

God Bless

Have a good day, or even a great one.